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Pew I didnt hear a thing yesterday so today is the day... Cross your fingers.. PLEASE

Last night I recieved a message on my phone, from a guy who was asking me to go to his party OCtober, 3rd. He told me she wasnt invited lol.. They are B-buddies but I think she has feelings for him where he is more B-buddies here and there!! I don´t know thought but aren´t going.. Don´t want to be part of it!! I don´t have his number on my phone!!

Went to bed early was tired..

No Call

I went to the job interview at 5pm and it lasted 30 minutes. I thought it went well and they told me that they either called me tonight or tomorrow.. Seem like its going to be tomorrow.. Now Im off to bed KNight KNight Sleep tight!!

Good gut feeling

I was out there and see where I have sought work and was positively surprised how big it is. I had applied for a job because it was in an SFO and had not seen the place ... It was So great and I had a good gut feeling afterwards.

Feeling Wonderful yet nervous

What an awesome morning.. I had patience with Emil, sooooo nice and he really enjoyed as well;O)

He was really happy yesterday when I picked him up and we talked all the way home WONDERFUL.. so we did today;O)

On my way home from kindergarden, I thought about the job interview. I expect the worst... That they will keep asking questions about me being a singel mother.. working hours, meetings etc which annoyes me because I have already worked in a SFO before, also been to meetings and took part of others cooperative meetings with school, parents and other organizations... But yes they don´t know that!! So I have to be positive and think they don´t believe me because they don´t!! So I have to relax and no nagging... Pew not easy hehe..

Yes Another One

Hm Sitting on my couch, missing someone to cuddle up with..
Missing someone who I can talk with... One who can calm me down... Drink coffee with.... SUK...

Yeah between being nervous about tomorrow and missing a bf....

I LOVE MY SON

I told Emil about the job interview nd he was going to be with his friend from kindergarden... Told him if I got this job then unfortunately he couldnt go to handball!! which I think sucked.. So he wasnt going today we were just enjoying ourself and then he gave me the biggest hug and a big kiss told me he loved me and went upstairs to play hahahaha...

I found an Angel

Yes I found someone who will pick him up and look after him while I´m at the job interview PEW... THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU:O)
It looked soo impossible and then we met her and her son near where we live;O) Her son and Emil go to the same kindergarden.. They live on the same street..
I told her and she offered to help out SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SWEET of her!!
So she will pick them up so they can play and then when I´m done with the job interview then I willpick him up!!

So now I´m nervous CHEESE it isnt easy!!!

BE POSITIVE BE POSITIVE

looks bleak

Today Im going to pick up my son at the kindergarden, he spend his weekend at his dad;O) I missed him and can´t wait to see him;O)

Well I was suppose to go to a jobinterview tomorrow but now it might not going to happen because its 5 pm and I have no one to take care of Emil... A friend of mine was going to but she is pain because of her abscess..

Right now I dont know if I can go.... I hate it and it seems sooooo impossible.. I have NO ONE!!

Sunday

I called my work and told me ill. Sheep after yesterday where I was standing on his hands and had to do a somersault, where said crack in the neck and back. So I was affraid that if I maked a wrong move that it will get worsed.. Because I work with disabled and you can quickly get to make a wrong move..

So instead I Biked to a friend and her bf for coffee and pie mmmm yummi.. It was a really nice day sitting outside enjoying the weather. NICE!!!
I have never tried before to get a blister in the palate by the teeth. But I think I got fro the hot pie lol..

Later I went over to some friends get to see the NFL, it was Steelers and Bears playing... GO STEELERS!!

Because of the blister I couldnt drink coffee, so I told her.. She got mad I could tell and hear.. I like WHAT!!! later she put plates on the table and she was nearly throwing them on the table, really odd.

Later she told me what was wrong, I thought oh no please do something it about and dont get me in between I like you both!!

The game sucked, Steelers played soooooo bad GRRRRRRRRR and unfortunately they lost but as I said the game sucked....

Saturday

Ahhhhh called in sick still snotty but going to work tomorrow..

I slept in and it helped, I´m feeling soo much better...

I got traded in and ran on rollerblades down there, I was quite knackered afterwards hahaha lay and then a film finished before I got the goods put in place ...
Got vacuumed and now enjoys CSI.... Later on its Dirty Dancing..

I´m feeling like to really clean the apartment... I will before Dirty Patrick R.I.P... Just alittle..

LOVE THAT MOVIE... But when you notice he is such a bad movie kisser lol.. But a really SEXY dancer!!

I love to dance and now something is wrong with my neck LMAO HAHAHAHAHA I´m no Patrick S... I wished I was a better dancer!!

What a Day

So snotty so I slept in;O)

A phone rings and guess what... I´m going to a job interview on tuesday;O)YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES.............

But she told me on the phone that I will have 3 days at week till 5pm, so I need to hire a girl who can pick him up these days..

Now thats a little negative but have to think positive and if I get this then its a job and that´s where I wanted to work;O)

Its just Emil´s kndergarten who thinks he shouldnt have long days there. But its not up to them to tell me what to do.. Its annoying me..

I have a nod in my stomach because I am excited about this, peeeeeeeew... I want this but it means late hours, finding someone who can pick up Emil... But they need someone as soon as possible which will be great.. No more worries about money..

Im excited how Emil's investigation is going. I recieved a phonecall from his kindergarten just about next week, how long he is going to be there a day..She told me that it went well with the psychologist and she had already proved everything she needed to find out what kind of help he should have .. but it will take some 3 weeks due to other work until she tells us about how and how .. But it was what she said .. Then she told me that they were looking at a map and Emil told them that I was in Germany... HAHAHAHA and she thought that I was on vacation in Germany, from Germany or something but no.... I was in Germany in January to Nk concert and he was with his grandmother funny...

I called the psychologist and it was fortunately also what she said .. and told her that when she examined him in action he was on but the language he jumped from .. said that he did not bother, was tired and leaned across the table. But it would take some weeks until she has read through her notes and Samlaget everything about it was that or there was more .. So it could be what happened in the social .. She also told me that she is going to help him with his speech and the social:O)
I am so relieved but also Whew what if there is more .. But think positive and that my son gets the help he should have..!

I went to a friend to be creative.

Well at first we drove to Panduro to buy some more creative stuff.

Then we drove to her house and got something eat and talking and talking.. It was sooo much fun.. I don´t know her that well yet but we are getting there..

She used to make and sell her own Jewelry.. Watches, bracelet, earrings, neckless... I saw all of it and it was soooo Cool;) Felt in love with her watches..

So after talking, cooking, talking, showing, talking and more talking, we finally got startet on our things;O)

She is making with pearls a picture of her niece and I can´t wait to see how its going to look..

I was making my own pearls and linked bracelet to Emil, something he wished me to do and now I finally did:O) Think its gonna be a gift for his birthday;OD

We talked and she told me a thing. It was acutally a little funny and surprising..

She was going to pick up her hubby at the airport so she drove me home... I WANT A CAR!! THANKS

I borrowed whole 2 seasons of CSI: NICE!!

So I went home to watch CSI but wasnt feeling too well so I went to bed early and saw CSI in bed AWESOME.....

Hard to hope

Boo hoo I have sent 5 job applications and I´m not getting 3 of them:O( So I hope for one of the last two!!

Right now its hard to hope.. also because Im getting bigger and bigger:O(

Today at work was one of the residents who got cramp. Two or more races SA and SI. SA cried suddenly, however, do something, call after one or two .. I ran in and got called after I had pressed the correct number in the Crappy phones. Afterwards they were put her to bed SA came in and said that if SI would need to talk about cramps, she would be there? It was otherwise SA as panicked and not SI .. I said to SA that it was her who panicked and not us.. She didnt come with any comments.
There are not much to do than wait for the cramp ends and then get in contact with the person.. Afterwards they are pretty tired so they got her in bed..

Second day

It goes well with Emil's investigation, he was focused for a long time. But the lack of language and language comprehension. Maybe it happens to Emil in a large assembly is that there are a lot of buzzing and he can not distinguish.

Things are going well at work. Has received a lot of praise because I know of lifts and have tried anything like this before .. They are known used to be very young and inexperienced.

1st Day

Pew it was early this morning and both of havent got much sleep..

It was fun and nice at the sheltered care housing for older people, where I started as a substitute today;O)After a while I suddenly reconize one of the men and went into a little shock... He is used to have a wife who past away couple years ago.. His wife and my mom used to work together and I use to go there with my mom when I was a kid... He actually also remembered when I didnt speak with my mother for 7 years because I had a bf who had a daughter... He told me that she was mad at me having a kid.. I got a BIG hug and he asked about my son and how old he was.... FUN but weird at the same time....:O)

One of those who work there went on to say that I should perhaps be replaced for one which is long-term sick leave. I would love that actually but then they need to pay me more.. So I will see what happens after the 3 days I have been there.

When I picked up my son, he was so tired that he could not run with the scooter home. So I was glad that I had my bike, he could sit on..
I´m also quite tired and would like to see a movie with Emil and then he choose Teletubbies: O (

We are going to bed early thats for sure!!

Sunday

Im soo glad we didnt go to Bonbonland pew, slept too long and not much patience today as well!!

But I have to think positive, Which I always have to do.

Today we had acted in finally;O)

Recieved a phonecall from my dads gf, she arent that nice.. She is nagging and is soooooo jealous about my dad and I. I think for no reasons.. I grew up without my dad, my parents split when I was about 3 and he got back in my life when I was expecting Emil.. I finally have contact with him and the only thing she is doing is nagging... I really trying and actually thinks its going the right way and then I meet with my dad and he tells me that she is still nagging about me!!
I give her time as I always has and then met with my dad whenever he can without she is there...


My fear is that my son has autism!! yeah its a fear and when I read or watch videos with kids with autism, some of them reminds me of Emil.. I will probably know before Chritmas... its horrible to wait this long and really dont know how I will react if he is an autist:O(

Sleeping

What a wonderful way to wake up this morning, a kiss on the cheek from my very smiling Son;O) We slept in today which were nice..

We were suppose to go to bonbonland tomorrow but I can not see to leave because if we come home late, we come to bed late and we have very up early Monday .. We will just be tooo tired. Emil is going to handball at 4.30 pm and Im going to work at 7am until 3pm so its going to be a long day as well.

When we were eating breakfast in he living room suddenly something was knocking on the window, at first I thought it was Jack our cat but it was a squirrel LOL it has never happen before... Fun and it was cute..

While Emil saw movies I felt asleep, not a good thing, I hate when I do that!! After couple of hours we finally went in the shower..While Emil was in his room playing I vacuumed..

Today I have had no patience, yelled at Emil and crapped him:O( Ofcourse he didnt listening to what I told him to do.. I hate myself for doing this and I wanna change so bad!!! Also he is soo happy and really try and then Im just crappy grrrrrrrrr Annoying

We did not come to the store today, so instead we baked cinnamon snails.. Still no patience and it was suppose to be fun..:O(

I hope it will be better tomorrow!!

I have really thought about our diet and is considering starting to eat gluten free food and no cow milk because we both often have loose bowels.. I found a site and its really expensive so I dont know... I dont have much money now but it would help on our health!!

Its nice to have someone who can come and go......;OX.... GoodNight

Great News

What an excellent start of the day;O)

Emil and I walked to his kindergarten not far from here, he used to run his running wheels but because it was taken too long to get his clothes on, I told him he had to walk... its not far.. But it was nice we talked about what to do when I picked him up from kindergaten. We are going to make animals/spiderweb out of chestnuts;O)

When we got to the kindergaten two pedagoes asked me if I had time, they were sitting and making something.. I had time.. Emil has small cards with his picture on
in different situations so it helps him to do things.. Where they suggested pic with things on instead of himself;O)Big step ahead.. Then on monday and thursday they were going on a small trip in a small group;O) Wednesday him and pedagoe are going swimming.. Friday going on a small trip with a pedagoe, where I told them that it wouldnt be a good idea because, if he is just with one adult he doesnt care about the other kids and thats where he need help..So I suggested that they bring a kid who he can get along with;O) They listening and actually thought this was a good idea..
So now they will make his days more structured and hope this help him.. I also talked with one of the pedagoe about that it would be a good idea, if they helped him to speak out when he can not be more. Instead he Burp and say dog shit, so its more positive contact than negative..
It was the most positve conversation I ever had awith his new kindergarden and Emil begun there in May when his other kindergarden closed.

Next week there will be a child psychologist and examine him for a few days to figure out if there are something more than just his speech problems.

I was sooo glad and happy that I called his dad to tell him this good news..

Taking a relaxing bath before I picked him up:O)

We made spider webs and after we were done, we hung them in his window he was sooo proud..

After dinner I made smoothies, apples and grapes for Disney Sjov, a Disney Show for kids and their parents;O) Then there were talent from Denmark we had to see, Emil loves it and we danced and had fun really lovely!!!

I cant stop thinking about my visit yesterday, where G and H kept saying that sugar isn good for kids DOH!!!!!!!!! Like I dont know, we hardly eat sweets here!!

And last its 9/11 so my thoughts go out to the ones who lost their lives that day and to the ones who lost someone... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xDh_pvv1tUM

Visiting my ex mom-in-law and her wife;O)

Today Emil had the day off from kindergarten because we were going to visit my ex mom-in-law G and her wife H;O) I havent seen them since Christmas 2006.

First we went to see where G was working.. She works on a school where she teach kids with different disabilities that others cant... She is very good at her job, and told me a lot about it maybe alittle too much. LOL NAH its really great that she found her spot in life.
But it was too much when she start to talk about Emil that it would be a great place for Emil and no one els could help him. I just didnt need to hear that now.. it might be a great place but for now I just dont want to think too much about it.. Just to find myself and figure things out on my own for now. I dont need people in my life who tells me what to do and not to do.. Im me, leave it or take it..

I told her later how I felt about it and I think she understood;O) we are gonna meet again;O)

The Time flies

Im a mother to a nearly 5 year old.. We moved to a bigger apartment with a garden. I simply love it...

Im a lover hehe with someone who know my needs and what kind of sex I like and dont like!!

I have been to NKOTB concert, yes Im an old fan LMAO 21 years.. I drove to Frankfurt together with two other girls and it was fun... not used to drive, I find myself driving very fast... We went to meet and greet and I met them for the first time ever, I was soooo nervous but man it was awesome... The concert was speechless, loved it... We actually met them at their hotel before the concert weeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!
But man I was tired:O)

Saw the super bowl at a friends house Steelers/cardinals!! Steelers won!! Can this be better?!..

Seaching for a new job since I left my last job in May, it was an aweful place. But I was paid until September so I had time to get up again and find my self;O)
I have sent 5-6 jobapplications..

Im working as a substitute in a residential accommodation for adults with disabilities, I really enjoy working there and been there since summer 2007.. On monday I will start working on a sheltered care housing for older people as a substitute.. Its my very first time working with older people so Im looking forward to it.

Been to the Roskilde Festival with 2 friends and my cousin, it was awesome. I heard: Cold PLay, Pet shop Boys, Oasis, Madness, Volbeat, Grace Jones, Tim Christensen...

We got another cat named Garfield, he is from May, 1st.

Its been a vey stressful summer for me and my son.. No job, no patient, very negative thoughts and I could go on... Just what I have been throught was eating me up inside until reasonly.. Where I made up my mind to be more positive (what doesnt kill ya make you stronger)and thats what Im going to do. Be trur to yourself.

I haven´t spoken with my mother for nearly 2 months. Since I told her to respect my home, my life and choices. My cousin who was like a sister to me, who knew me well.. Disrespected me as well.. and enough is enough...
I met a person to Nk concert and she could never made up her mind, let me believe something.. Nagging about others, how they spend their money, choices and how they looked...Coming from a not skinny person.. I became like her and I didnt liked who I was becoming so I cut our contact.. Well I guess we werent friends..
I dont feel sad about it anymore, I made a choice and this is whats best for me. Be true..

I have also gain weight and wants to loose 10 kg.. So I started fitness, just running.. So far I have done it 3 times a week.. Really nice.. But havent lost a thing. But just get in shape will be perfect;O)

My ex and I are getting a long better than we have been in a long time, we can actually talk about Emil without being annoyed/mad at each other.. I guess time heals all wounds with our disagrement we used to have about our son and actually agree to do the same to help our son..